June 30th 2009
I have received two lovely awards in the past week - thank you Mary Ellen and Mel. I feel so honoured! I have been working on my picture, taking my time and enjoying it. I do a little every day. I have my sewing machine out and have gathered some fabric and trimmings to make some little bags. I like lots of variety in my creativity and am looking forward to doing something different.
I spent Sunday feeling sad, frustrated, angry and just about every other emotion you can think of. Talked to both of my daughters and woke up Monday feeling like it was all over and I had moved on from the upset of the weekend. Moved on. I will be there for my daughters if they need to talk but I am finished with that part of my life. It will always be there but it doesn't have the power to upset me for any length of time.
All during December, January and February I had this terrible sense of forboding, I had no idea why and I was feeling rather frightened by it. Now, five months later I feel my life crashing around me yet again. My most important relationships are changing, I have no idea where they are going and it's pretty unsettling, however, I feel stronger now than when my life has crashed around me in the past. Change! Always change! Where will it take me this time?